porcupinesssssssss

Saturday, November 7, 2009 at10:05 PM

A number of porcupines huddled together for warmth on a cold day in
winter; but, as they began to prick one another with their quills, they
were obliged to disperse. However the cold drove them together
again, when just the same thing happened . . . In the same way the
need of society drives the human porcupines together, only to be
mutually repelled by the many prickly and disagreeable qualities of
their nature. (Schopenhauer, 1851/1964, p. 226)

I cannot believe I've just quoted from a journal article. Still, thought the analogy was pretty cute :D

Am yearning for a day when I can have a private pool party complete with cocktails, body floats and sunglasses!
But no HSM 2 stuff, please.
Oh, and bitchy friends who spike your drinks.

Thou shalt have an everlasting Monday

Thursday, November 5, 2009 at10:16 PM

and stand in the moon.

The moon's man stands in his shell,
Bent under a bundle
Of sticks. The light falls chalk and cold
Upon our bedspread.
His teeth are chattering among the leprous
Peaks and craters of those extinct volcanoes.

He also against black frost
Would pick sticks, would not rest
Until his own lit room outshone
Sunday's ghost of sun;
Now works his hell of Mondays in the moon's ball,
Fireless, seven chill seas chained to his ankle.

- Sylvia Plath

at7:42 PM


Dysthymia. Anhendonia. Bipolar. Dissociation. Avoidant.

Find it quite amazing/disturbing that I can relate to all of the above


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Day of increment
Woke up feeling horrible (think it's all the unfinished dreams/unsatisfying dream endings thing), dragged myself to school hoping that no one would be perceptive enough to sense my state of emotion but no, you guys just had to forcibly enter my personal bubble and sit beside me, eh. Ignored the giggly guys (found out later that they were guessing reasons for my moodiness =.=) for most of the lecture in an attempt to actually take in useful information. Think this just about summed up my whole day in school. Went back in a huge daze, actually found myself on the bus home from the interchange with no recollection of ever boarding it. Weird. Also saw a pigeon under a hdb block sheltering itself from the (OWNAGE) rain while walking home. Crashed on the sofa and woke up after 2-3 hours of fitful sleep, but felt a little better. Not yet enough to face society, though hopefully I'll regain courage by tomorrow.

.... and yet again I'm reminded of why I absolutely loathe comparison.


The month November doesn't bring rain,
the rain brings November.

only my moon has secrets

Tuesday, November 3, 2009 at9:58 PM

Today is further proof, that attitudes DO influence behaviour.
(Earth is full. Go home!)
And that commitment is almost non-existent for some. Hooray.

Was initially saddened by the above facts, but then I decided not to be stupidly sad over this minute things and be happy, so. :DDD
Plus, it helps that my fellow werewolf has a lower hit rate then me HAH I OWN. Always have, always will. (of course, the navy has a lower population so I'm not exactly playing fair but teehee) ^^

Okay off to complete the family tree now OMG PLUS U-THEATRE LOGBOOK AHHHHHH
I forsee a sudden spike in the intake of chocolate in the very near future.

before i ever met you

Monday, November 2, 2009 at10:00 PM


Interesting day, today. Exhausted myself from laughing so hard. Also think I looked drunk during the process. All hail me. (-:

Now I'm dreaming of: Mickey Mouse gloves, the upcoming Christmas party I'm determined to have - how many & what type of people to order invite over, how much I love the shoes here
(the whole outfit, actually), leftover pumpkins, chiffon dresses, dark chocolate oatmeal cookies, vintage brooches, powerful sneezes which make your heart stop for that split second;
everything not related to tomorrow's test, actually.

Oh, attempted to upload pictures but the uploading system's not working. Ugh.

Sleepy ///////////////////////////////

i'll buy you rogaine

at12:11 AM


Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight

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Harlow.

It's only Monday, and I've already found my twin. ALWAYS KNEW I BELONG TO SOME OTHER (normal and not so dynamically dysfunctional) FAMILY
Hi twin if you're reading this might I repeat again, you're awesome and yes, school's boring and will forseeably remain so.

Oh, and around 5 hours of mismanaged time today have resulted in A & P assignment 2 being painstakingly fitted into only two pages = :0)
Plus several other factors, some of which are set in the near/distant future - I think I'll be rather happy for the rest of the week.

Let go, let God.
My prayer for this week would be to let God handle everything life throws at me,........................ be addicted to joy, and let sadness envelop itself(, that loser). :D

Jan.


lead me to the cross

Sunday, November 1, 2009 at12:30 AM

Reid says:
love is in a red flower you see on the way to school,
love is the cloud that looks like a rabbit
love is the song you hear blasting from some poor soul's speakers
love is always there, and everywhere
the beauty of heaven in every moment
God creates every moment for us
and because He's here,
part of heaven
is always experienced.
we just need to see what we can't
and to do that,
you have to believe.
God will take all the sadness.
you know He does.
once you've let it go.
because his love flows from an open wound
he can take our pain and worries, and frowns
and return it with love.
only when we are in our most need
that we feel the strongest feelings of love.
He will see to that (:
in every special way, possible.
open the eyes of your heart,
let go of the things and thoughts that stops you from going into his arms
and you will be filled.
awesome? (:

Jan says:
this is going up on the blog.
to serve as a reminder,

Jan says:
that God talks through people like you
who have faith.
simply faith.